i love to shop but these days....

I remember watching this movie about this girl who said she was the type of girl who has a lot of boys who are friends but no boyfriends and at the time I thought that wouldn’t be me but now thinking about it I feel like I’m slowly growing into that mold...I’d love to say that I’m 100% loving being single but in some ways I think its human nature for people to want companionship, someone who values some of your interests over theirs.. for many years I’ve been very nonchalant about relationships looking at them as if no matter how long lasting it says they are on the pack, they will eventually all have an expiry date... so the min you get a whiff of something going bad or get bored you throw it away and get yourself another pack as the supermarket will always stock a range of brands that u'll be interested in and even if they don’t have the right one jus yet....you could make do with something else until.. Well, until a better product comes along!
Having thrown away my last 'purchase' I’ve been to the supermarket several times, lets jus say my summer was made up of testing a bit of this and a bit of that but at the end of the day I went home with nothing! Jus like when you go into a clothes store and you try on some outfits that you think look great on you...then when you look at the price tag & u see that you jus can’t afford it! Why all these analogies you’re wondering..Its cause I just can’t put into words how exactly I’m feeling or maybe I’m scared of actually putting down what I know is the root of all these feelings...