machozi

Is this reality or are we all living in a dream...sweat blood and tears are common factors in each individuals life, Am I any different?

Friday, October 21, 2005

CRAIG AND I

Ok, so I jus downloaded the new Craig David album and honestly, I really would love to buy it but my student pockets just cant afford it plus downloading it so so easy. Its crazy how we don’t buy cd’s anymore these days, but I do try if its an artist I coz I’d want to support them … so if by any chance Craig is reading this ..IOU Big time… anyway so I have been sitting at the computer for two days watching the songs download(dial up is shit!) and finally it’s done!... its all so sooo good and I already have a favorite ‘Unbelievable’.

Craig and I have a relationship... from the first time I heard his album in high school I was sold… I remember the break and lunch times cooped up in this tiny music room listening to the born again album wit my pals…and my early morning walks to the school bus… and then singing to his 2nd album wit my first real crush…. Ah memories!

So yea I’m back at uni after one crazy summer and I still can’t believe half the shit that happened, happened! Just as I thought that I understood me… another side of me came out that I dint know and it took someone who I kinda had a summer thing wit, for me to see it …and lets jus say I dint like this side…. I feel like with age I’m becoming more immature or is it that everyone is moving on to a higher level of maturity and I’m being left to float! Especially with men I’m becoming more and more…… I cant even describe it …why do I feel the need when with certain people to be so ‘accepting’…. I jus cant say no to certain people and looking back that makes me sick…Don’t you hate it when you think you have closure and then something happens that totally destroys the wall that you’ve been trying so hard to build? Yup, so I’m in the call or not to call stage, I’m so used to fronting that I don’t need him in my life I can’t exactly be calling can I? Isn’t pride a bitch!