machozi

Is this reality or are we all living in a dream...sweat blood and tears are common factors in each individuals life, Am I any different?

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

ADDICT!

Hi my name is Machozi and I’m addicted to Limewire (Downloading software)

I don’t know how or when its started but now I’m just hooked, I have to check on it constantly see what’s downloading,watch the speeds,see which ones are almost done , sometimes I’ll even watch the countdown as it completes the download… if u dint know any better someone would think I’m monitoring Kengen stock or a life support machine … my computer has not been turned off in a week…

It used to be jus polite downloading maybe once or twice a week….u know, a new episode of Lost a new song u heard on Tv or an old favourite that u had 4gotten about…. anyway it was moderate here and there…but now I cant go a day without it for the past two weeks I’ve been downloading stuff anything and everything searching US websites for the latest jams and even gone to US channel sites trying to figure out what new shows have come out…so I can download them….. downloaded about 5 movies that I have not even begun to watch….. I first finished the 1st season of Weeds…which rocks! Cant wait for season 2… then went on to Gilmore Girls (I had missed that show so much, as at home me and my mom used to enjoy watching it.. I know my mom and I secretly wanted our relationship to be like the Gilmore girls) the show does not disappoint season 5 & 6 is great after that I finally finished Lost season 2.. it got a bit boring in the middle but the end is a kicker and a half! Then Alias… Yea so now I’ve found this new show to download its called Entourage…its quite cool not so long though its average running time for each episode is about 25 mins so I got thru season one in a day…(yes I have nothing better to do) got the second season now and taking it slow but soon it will be done and then I’ll be in trouble …..So yup I need to break free…Is there a Limewire or a downloader’s Anonymous somewhere out there?… I need Help!

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Unanswered once, twice ,three times.....Delete!

He finally came down and he was okay, not as scary as I thought he would be..I dressed up he dressed down, I was in black trousers and heels he was in black long shorts and these horrid converse hightop pin striped shoes… somehow I assumed he’d be in his work clothes so we were a terrible miss match it kinda felt like roles were reversed I ‘m a total sneaker casual type of gal and he’s more a suit and sweater type of guy.. anyway,
It was wow! just as he said it would be and I was not as wow as I thought I could be but either way it was gotten out of the way in a very very fun way.. we talked about everything and anything and even went to the subject of the best way to cook rice!!! It went well… at least I thought it did, talked to him the day after and everything was cool… so now two unanswered texts and one unanswered phone call and almost two weeks of silence from his end and I decided to delete his number…so that done I now have to slowly weed him out of my life text by text …the number was easy… menu, contacts, name, delete! But the texts hmm those are a bit harder coz u have to open every single msg in order to delete it… all the “hey beautiful texts” and drunken 3am texts, the special little now insignificant things he said that I saved jus to make me smile…I don’t want to do to it, I don’t not want him in my life its jus that….. two unanswered texts and one unanswered phone call and almost two weeks of silence jus screams out ITS OVER!!!!!!!… Reality = Guys are big wimps! they’d rather ignore a girl then jus tell them its not working…so now my plan is every morning delete one or two texts if I’m in a good mood and the sun is shinning and soon enough there wont be anymore left to delete and I can move on with my life! Moving out of my house in a weeks time…Mann the year has gone so fast… I’m gonna miss my double bed! Really dreading the single campus bed awaiting me next year anyway …Up north I go cant wait for the next chapter of this year to begin!