oh no!

My blog page has gone all topsy turvy! the last post has refused to edit or delete itself and my sidebar has gone all wacky!

oh what a day!

As much as I want to be the independent woman who has a great career and doesn’t need a man in their lives, everywhere I look all the women who I know share the same views as me are all shackled up in relationships and r loving every min of it.... in full contradiction! I want to be married and have children in couple of years. basically I want what has become a fairy tale in this modern day and age where men are too happy not to commit as there are too many options in short skirts walking about... if there is one thing that I could change in this world is the fact that men can still attract younger women in their old age while most women simply cant!

Anyway enough of the random post

i love to shop but these days....

I remember watching this movie about this girl who said she was the type of girl who has a lot of boys who are friends but no boyfriends and at the time I thought that wouldn’t be me but now thinking about it I feel like I’m slowly growing into that mold...I’d love to say that I’m 100% loving being single but in some ways I think its human nature for people to want companionship, someone who values some of your interests over theirs.. for many years I’ve been very nonchalant about relationships looking at them as if no matter how long lasting it says they are on the pack, they will eventually all have an expiry date... so the min you get a whiff of something going bad or get bored you throw it away and get yourself another pack as the supermarket will always stock a range of brands that u'll be interested in and even if they don’t have the right one jus yet....you could make do with something else until.. Well, until a better product comes along!
Having thrown away my last 'purchase' I’ve been to the supermarket several times, lets jus say my summer was made up of testing a bit of this and a bit of that but at the end of the day I went home with nothing! Jus like when you go into a clothes store and you try on some outfits that you think look great on you...then when you look at the price tag & u see that you jus can’t afford it! Why all these analogies you’re wondering..Its cause I just can’t put into words how exactly I’m feeling or maybe I’m scared of actually putting down what I know is the root of all these feelings...

After the sunset....the true light of dawn is still a distance away ...though minute by minute, its getting closer

I love the sun in the morning its one of those things that makes me feel alive makes me feel that indeed there is more out there for me and that a bright new day means, a brand new start... The sun in the morning has got me through loads of things like the first and only time I got my heart broken, The few and far between fights I’ve had with my mom and my friends and then there are just days where u need that extra boost!
The sun has always been there...encompassing me in its warmth whispering that ray of light into my ear telling me that everything will be all right...
Now living in England and it being winter time... the sun is hard to come by and even when it does the wind is blowing so hard and so cold that its goodness is all lost .. I Want my Nairobi sun back I want to wake up at 6 in the morning and look out side and see light and not from the streetlamp still on coz its dark as hell oh no.. From the Sun! Saying hello babe how’d u sleep! It’s weird the things you start appreciating when you leave home...